Here we are, just weeks before the end of another year, and like never before, what’s next? I know in my life, I am certainly looking at a place in my physical, mental and spiritual existence I have never been! It may be age, journey, or just an ” aha moment”, but it’s just not
about me anymore!
In my younger years it was all about trying to go after what I believed were my dreams and desires. My thoughts and my time were spent on figuring out this insecure girl by not allowing the imperfections to show or be seen! The endless diets, excercising, and explanations I gave as to “why I was like this” , all given so you wouldn’t see that I really didn’t know ME!
Now, sitting here as a 50 year old divorced woman, mother of 3 grown children and soon to be 4 grandchildren, it’s never really
about just YOU! Every tear, broken dream, disappointment and stupid mistake, it was never just about ME!! This journey full of bumps and heartaches is where we obtain the knowledge of who and why God really made us… for others! All these years of trying to figure out “self” and it was really about “self” being quiet enough for me to see others!
This next year is going to be a very challenging year for those with no hope or faith in knowing God has them covered. It is up to us, those who are imperfect and have made mistakes along the way, to be the love and encouragement to hurting and broken people. The bible says they will know we are Christians by our love…… What do people see when they meet you?
For this imperfect and “real woman”, 2015 is going to be about being vulnerable and transparent for the well- being of others! It’s not about me, but it is about using my life, the one that’s not “so perfect”, to encourage someone else in their journey. Those of us who are still here to tell of our moments, stop and look around , there is always someone who can benefit from your experiences. Yes, this is definitely a “New Journey” for this woman, but it’s one that I will endeavor with gratitude and humility. May my life bring hope to those who have none, and confirmation to others who are sensing the same!